Grateful

What a week.
About a year ago I started getting this pain in my arm. It wouldn't go away. I just thought I was sleeping on it wrong. My arm would become weak and I would drop things that I was holding.
I finally gave in and went to the doctor. He said that I had bursitis in my shoulder. He said it was a pocket of fluid. I could either take some Tylenol for 4 months or I could get a cortisone shot. I hate needles. I picked the Tylenol. After 4 months my arm was worse. I was so scared to go in because I didn't want a shot. Finally in February I decided that any shot was better then the pain I was feeling.
I got the shot. It did not hurt at all. My arm felt great for two weeks. I was not feeling any more pain. After two weeks the pain started to come back just a little. The pain slowly came back that the pain is worse now then before the shot. I went in about two weeks ago. He said that he wanted to do a MRI because there was something the ultrasound was missing.
A few days after the MRI I went into the doctor to get the results. I thought I would go in and find we just need another shot.
I was watching Luke's kids that day. I had my two and Luke's. The doctor looked at me and said. Well I want you to stay calm. But I have good news and bad news. The pocket of fluid is gone. But it only revealed a tumor. I was kind of shocked. I was not expecting this at all. He said that it is covering my whole Rotator cuff. He said that he is not sure if it is cancer or not. He wanted to turn me over to a specialist. He said if it is we would need to look into chemo therapy. He said that no matter what I do need surgery because it is causing me pain.
I got put in with another doctor for that Thursday. I went in and he told me that he was not 100% sure it is cancer. He would like someone else to look at it. I got a call that afternoon saying the other doctor doesn't think it is cancer. So because they both don't think it is cancer they think I am in the clear. It is nice to know that it is not cancer. I am still a little worried that they will come back and say it is, just because they both are not 100% sure, only 90%.
Now I just have to figure out what do do about my arm. It is in so much pain. Last night I was in so much pain and wanted to drop things and curl up in a ball and cry. Medicine I take doesn't help. Everyday the pain seems to just get worse.
It will be nice to have my arm back to working order with no pain. If I have to go through surgery to get my arm to be like that it is worth it.
I want to thank everyone for their concerns and prayers. It is nice to know that you have family you cares and loves you.